Thursday, 3 March 2011

Self-sabotage: Part One

I googled self-sabotage before writing this post, to see what was out there on this topic. As I imagined, there were a lot of websites promising to share their secrets and tricks with you - for a small fee of course ;)

At first this made me feel a bit frustrated. Self-sabotage is something I am struggling with at the moment, and that I know has caused me problems in the past. I don't seem to be able to shake myself free of the negative thoughts that go round in my head, and the subconcious put-downs I seem to constantly carry around with me.

I've been to counselling, I've read so many books, I know the theory. Think positive thoughts, keep focussed, I am worthy person etc... The trouble is that I don't believe them or seem to be able to make them stick in my head.

And the fact that so many people seem willing to charge you so that you can be let in on the big secret makes me feel that actually they probably don't have the answers at all. But also, that I can't be the only one looking for the answer! When I realised that, I felt relieved and not quite so useless. I'm not the only person who is secretly telling themselves that they don't deserve happiness or to succeed.

But how can I/we start to change that internal monologue and believe in something more positive? Right now, I still don't know! But just realising that I'm not the only one and that I'm not as crazy as I thought makes me feel a bit better. Its also why this post is just Part One. I want to explore this further and try to counter-balance my self sabotaging behaviour with something new. I want to maximise my chances of reaching my weight-loss goal and (importantly) maintaining it - something that I will only manage if I can stop my innerthoughts sabotaging what I'm trying to achieve. I can't guarantee that any of this will work for you, or that whatever I try is something you should try too. But it might be interesting, it might be reassuring, it might be motivating, it might make you feel like you're not alone either.

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I'd love to know your thoughts, as ever your comments are welcome and appreciated and I read them all x

Wednesday, 2 March 2011

Quick Wednesday Weigh-In

This is just a really, really quick update on how my weight loss is going. Tonight I was weighed and this week have lost 2 lbs, which takes my total weight loss up to 30 lbs!! :D So chuffed! I have lots of other stuff to talk about and some ideas for different posts, and I promise I will write some more soon. I plan to give myself some chill out time just to blog and reflect on everything over the next week or so. Speak to you soon x